My Life is in My Sketchbook

I also like to draw. And to collect things. I love glue and colorful markers- in Russia we call them 'flomasters'. So i put everything together and it seems to be endless process. As life is.

Have a look at my Sketchbook # 2.

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BIG work finished!

For almost 4 month, together with a great and smart person, Carolyn Rush, we were working at creation of AIESEC International Annual Report.
Even though IT is my third annual report, this work taught me a lot. And I would like to underline, the work together with Carolyn and the team of collaborators, who contributed a lot to the writing of the report.

Here is the result. But even words will not help me to describe the experience!

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My Sketch Book!

Just published my Sketch Book # 1

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Just have some music fun

. You can take code here

Goodbye letters

Ones I have been in a one very good master-class around communication area. And the most amazing thing I heard there was: 'you as communication responsible of an organization should be ready to write about everything, also you need to be ready to write a necrology. Imagine that now you will have flights back home and airplane of some of your friends/colleges will not land....you need to write about this terrible thing which happened to all other people...'

This was a complete insight for me and I understood one more time the ultimate function of communication.

But what if you 'have died' by yourself. If something happen in your life and in your previous function/image/condition/status you just don't exist. How should you write about yourself?

What should you write?

What if other people also deleted you from their lifes, from their facebook accounts, from their calendars and from the web-page which you have been editing and now not.

How and what?

Time. Time will show. Yeap?

For a lot of time

I didn't write here for a lot of time.

For me it is very understandable. You write here only when you go out of yourself at some point, when you don't feel pretty comfortable with yourself and when you can not keep your thought in your poor head alone...

I don't know really what I am going to write here now.

Since some time I discovered that probably I was living not my values in life for a lot of time.

Nice discovery, but very poor.

This February happened to be a time for self-discovery.

It was a productive winter also.

Before I was thinking that the most difficult thing for me in life would be to lose some part of my body, to not be able to stand myself in that condition. I really was/am afraid about it a lot.

Like all your life you used to perceive yourself in some condition and now you are not like this.

Since some time, I perceive that the most difficult thing for me is to lose some of my very very close people (grandparent, parents, boyfriend, friends, relatives), actually those people who gave me some parts of them and in whom I also left some parts.

The reasons for it can be very different: for breaking relations to death.

And I am really scared of this. I feel that personally I left some part of me in them and if something i happen with this relations or with these people, what will I do?

I don't know.

I never put family or friends as my priority value in life, now I understand that I represent myself through those people who are around me...

Heart. Human heart. The most powerfull engine in the world, the most powerfull organ in the human body.

There is a definition in Kabbala "the point in a heart", which means the fisrt 'embrion' of the soul. The point where the soul of the person starts. It is out of materialistic needs of a person.

The activation of this point happens when the emptyness and nonsatisfaction of a humanbeing concentrating give an opportunity to understand the meaning of life.

It is also very connected with the balance and disbalance- those main points of the development of personality when you go out of the usual behaviour and feeling and you start to feel a little bit strange or not a little, going out of yourself.

Such kind of a moments in a life of a person usually are not very frequent, but they are very usefull.
Person starts to learn new things, to study 'life', to investigate and to explore.

Physically it may be compared with a feeling when thousands of small knifes are cutting your heart from inside and thousands of voices are in your head.

But I think that it is an absolutely right movement.

I am in this position now. And I am happy for this process...